Christmas Eve! But it doesn’t feel any different to me than any other day.
I went to work this morning at 8:20. It’s a little later than yesterday, but for the past two days now Steve has called right at 8:30. So I have to be there early. I was supposed to do the paperwork and count the food for the week today, but he and his wife got there early to do it. Dah well…he says he will do the paperwork on thursday. (Among other things that are supposed to get done by the end of the week.)
I worked with Rita and Tom today. Of all the complaining and bellytaching that I have heard from the other employees, she is not so bad. Maybe it was because she was not in charge today, or maybe it was because she was seeing how I work. Anyway, for the most part we were slow today, but we had more business than the other DQ’s around.
I got off at 3:00, but folks were still inside, so we couldn’t lock up and clean everything until they left. No big deal…I got a $3.00 tip from them – so I was happy. We didnt’ get out of there until 3:45, and then I had to go to the banki. So I wasn’t done with DQ until about 3:55. (But I forgot to clock out. I’ll do it Thursday morning.)
When I got home, the first thing I did was call Amy. I was so excited to talk to her…but, she was watching a movie with her brother…and MIKE! What’s the deal?! That’s a little discomforting. But I will get to that later. I had made out a list to talk to her about so that we would not have a dead conversation (as often happens with me on the phone…that is why I hate using the phone. Everything is in Real Time and you expire all your material real quick.) It’s ok though. She told me she sent an email to me, eventhough I won’t be able to read it until the fall. But it’s the sentiment that matters to me. Hearing her voice was almost enough to make me “have a moment,” and I dang hear cried twice (as did she)…she started it though, which is good – it means that she misses me as much as, if not more than, I miss her (and that’s quite a bit).
But the kicker…if she misses me, what’s the deal with Mike? Old friend? New friend? Boyfriend? Relative? I just hope she hasn’t given up on me completely. There has to be a thought somewhere in the back of her mind that tells her…”he’ll be back. I know he will, he’s always there when I least expect it, but it’s really when I most need it…MAN where is he?” Well, the answer…”I’m right here. For now it is only a phone call away (or a 2 hour drive) but soon it will be right there.” I told her I would try to visit. And now with my new car, and soon to be had driver’s license, with the permissions of my parents I can visit. Ugh…I can write a bunch more on this but I will wait.
She said she would call back tomorrow…hopefully she will. (I have noticed how I always call or visit at a time when she’s about to do something that I would not like so much…or maybe it is just my imagination.) Ugh…I didn’t wait very long. Anyway…
Cracky visited me at the DQ today, about 40 minutes before we closed. It was great to see her, some familiar face from the group of people I miss the most (and that is a darn big group.) She got lunch – a 4 piece Steak Finger basket and no drink. I was going to make it for her, but everybody and their dog came in after she did, so I didn’t get a chance. I told her the Group could visit – that I got the ok with my parents, which was a shocker.
But back to Christmas Eve. Every year, no matter where I am at, It’s a Wonderful Life comes on and one of my parents watches it. I have concluded that I have only seen about the first hour of that long, semi-boring movie. Perhaps it is not so boring, it’s just that I have heard about the complaints of it being on every year and seeing the first part over and over again. (I have spend the past 30 minutes writing this so far).
My stupid CD player is messed up, or maybe it is just my CDs. But I want to hear Spin by Lifehouse. Hoever I don’t know where it is on my CD and my player won’t find it and it rarely starts playing on the first try. P.O.S.! It was free and it’s old, but it’s all I got. My other one won’t play burned CDs.
Well…my brother wants me to fix his computer, my mom wants me to watch TV (*gasp!*), my stepdad wants me to be responsible, but I just want to go to bed and listen to music, and think of Amy. According to her and her roommate I always made her happy. I guess I never told her that she made me happy. (even though she didn’t jump but twice at something I wanted us to do, but I jumped at everything she wanted to do.) it’s ok, I was there for her. I had other friends I counted on as she counted on me. It all worked out. * “if only she knew…” – Michelle Branch * I’m outty. Laterz.
Song in my head: “Spin” – Lifehouse
Craving: Pettifores
Mood: Stuffed Full/Tired
Thought: “Wanna sleep…wanna talk to Amy…DON’T wanna eat…wanna see Amy…wanna sleep some more and dream about the god times I had and will have with Amy.”
Quote: “if only she knew” – Michelle Branch
