Ok…today I have been unofficially kicked out of my parents’ house.
My job said that I would be promoted, and paid $8.00/hr, but I had to make sure everyone came in on their scheduled time if they were to open the store. Usually I open it unless I am off – like Sundays. So in order to make sure, I have to call…thus I am working on Sunday because I am getting paid the extra $1/hr every other day. My boss would cover a no-show on Sunday, otherwise I did.
Not working on Sunday is a stipulation to living at home. To me, it wasn’t working because I didn’t go there, clock-in, or anything like that…however, the abstract part of a manager’s job is to deal with the company while he is not there. I didn’t know/think of this when I agreed. So…
I cannot now use the phone on Sunday to call work to make sure they show up. Dah well…I didn’t like using the phone anyway. But I am going to have to tell Steve that I am unable to do it on Sunday, and that either he needs to, or pay Zadra an incentive to do it (like +$0.50/hr.)
Therefore, my plans have changed once more…I am not moving to Waco. I am staying in Hubbard..somewhere. There’s a 1-bedroom efficiency that the former manager stayed in, and there is also a different type of apartment complex, more of like a half-way house, with much the same setup on Forrest Gump.
My stepdad also wants me to double up on the car payments I have now. I originally paid $167 a month for the Cavalier, then I had to double that to $334 a month to get it by 8/20/04. Then it changed to the Escort at $358 a month. Now he wants $300 a month in rent, and $700+ ($716) a month in car payments? That’s $1016 a month! Not to mention the money I have to take out for tithe and gas money. I only make $832 a month! It makes me want to scream! And there is no way I can save any money at these rates. Thus it is is not financially possible for me to support myself (as I have always known) since rent is $400 or more, food is about $200, health insurance – $250, car payment is $360, student loans are $50, telephone/electric/water is $300 or more…that’s $1500 a month. I would have to get two good jobs like I have now to pay for it all. I can’t afford it…and car insurance is $270! Three good jobs! Ugh!!!!
And all this BEFORE church. And then my stepdad says to my mom, “He sold God out for a dollar.” And then to me say,s “I think you’re just playing church.” It makes me sick. I agree…I don’t like this church we are going to. I would go elsewhere if I could, but I can’t. I can’t do a lot of things ecause they didn’t let me get a car when I was 16, or do everything else I should have done without major consequences.
They said “No girlfriends until you go to ETBU. These hometown girls aren’t worth it.” And when I findally date someone at ETBU, they throw a fit about that.
On the one hand, they say for me to try and get promoted and do what you can to get your DQ job…then they keep suggesting I need a second job, knowing that 2 jobs is 1.) going to hinder my availability for DQ and 2.) a manager can’t have a 2nd job and work for DQ.
Ugh…now everyone sees why I hated coming home from school on holidays and breaks…I have to deal with this and much more. Every time I came home it was another lecture from them. I can’t please them, not anymore…they have their mind made up that I am a bad person and can’t be trusted…blah blah blah. Well, f@#$ them!
It makes me mad. And all I can do about it is write in a journal and hope they don’t read it. If I talked to them about it, they would just find a way to get me out of the house sooner. Trust me, I want to leave, and would have a long time ago if it were financially possible. But it’s not.
To get more money I would have to find another job in town. I get off work at 4:30, everything else closes (except gas stations) at about 7 or 8. And I can’t drive anywhere because my parents think I am an unsafe driver. I only get nervous when they are there watching every move. I don’t really even drive bad. It is their imagination and pre-determination that I am a bad person.
Ugh…anyway, I’m going to bed. Laterz.
- Song in my head: One Step Closer – Linkin Park
- Cravings: Hot Links
- Mood: mad/really mad
- Thoughts: “Almost free…almost free…almost free…”
- Quote: “I’d like to thank Hollywood Foreign Press” – Golden Globe Awards
