I was glad to get home today. I was worn out. We watched Enemy of the State tonight on ABC, which brought back memories of watching it on CD in my room at ETBU.
However, when my stepdad goes into my room to check the gas heater, he notices my calendar, and the events listed for the 15th. “Call Amy and Laura.” He comes out to the living room interrupting the movie…”I do not want you calling Amy on the 15th in my house. She has nicely let you go and you are getting to where she could think you are stalking her.” Blah Blah Blah…on and on.
She may very well have “let me go” and that is fine. I am used to that and can deal with it. The only problem with that is the whole relationship was hypocritical then. She didn’t care…she just wanted what she wanted…I don’t know if she got it or not. But she seemed to have a difficult time saying goodbye…more difficult than all my other friends.
“Se la vi” I got what I wanted out of it – a close friend, a hand to hold, an ear to talk to, someone that wanted to go do stuff, just to be together and do stuff, and someone I could help with any of their personal problems.
We started out while on a “girl-hater” week for me, and a “guy-hater” week for her…we both reconsidered our situation and fell for each other, but not entirely. The only thing that went wrong is “out of site, out of mind.” I suppose the only reason that I think of her everyday is because her picture is on my desk.
Dah well…I guess I will change it to Beth’s picture…which will probably be another go-0round with my parents, but Beth is my true best friend. She and I understand each other completely (or we did at one point). I am not so sure where we stand on that now since we don’t talk a lot, but regardless.
Anyway, I already have a plan for when I move out on dealing with a girlfriend (or not) so I will just have to hold off until then.
That’s all for today. Not much happened. Laterz.
- Song in my head: “All the things she said” – Tatu
- Cravings: Immitation Crab Meat
- Mood: Tired/Disturbed
- Thought: “When I move out, I can do what ever I want, and can deal with relationships better.”
- Quote: “Old flames are like past tax returns, file them away for 3 years, then cut them loose.” – The Family Man
